the date with her.(and him?)-another love story

i felt angry at first becoz i felt disregarded by the ppl whom i respect so much.
and I hate someone whom ignored my eagerness to know something that meant so much to me.
however,she gave me an appeasement answer,now i felt better.

from her answer, she know for sure that they are match.
and i found sth which are interest that i had never paid attention to.wow!fresh for me!
she told me lot of his special attributes.
i felt happy that she is so clear abt it.
and what made me felt ashame is,i need more prayer to God.
i growth only from outside.
actually i have been struggling for so long time and didn't bring it to God.but what is the truth is,i can't bear it without Lord!
ok,why you always run from Lord?
i need lot of remind.i need to walk inside and have a close relationship with Lord or I will still sink and then float again,and sink again.unreliable.don't paid too much hope on me!i always think like that.
but Lord did give me lot of chances to challenge myself and growth.be strong,babe!
give yourself a chance, have a good start,and don't too depend on yourself but to look upon God.

dear Lord,please open the eyes of my heart Lord,I want to see You.