為甚麼?-尋找意義

這個故事,好像之前壓力超大,受不了時候埋怨的寫照,但是卻很真實的道出我內心的感動.
我埋怨上帝為甚麼要給我來台灣唸心理系,
我埋怨上帝為甚麼要把我帶離原本很有把握可以靠她穩上的老師的研究室,
我埋怨上帝為甚麼要這樣"害"我...
我坐在桌前一堆paper中哭泣,那種寫不出東西的的唉嘆和焦慮,
頭很痛的躺在床上床上思考面試時說不出來的壓力,
我都懷疑上帝要我走的路.
為甚麼要?
看了這個故事,我好感動.
我現在雖然不明白,但是我會努力的,
去思考我的生命,到底能夠怎麼樣來服事別人,
怎麼樣來成為別人的幫助.
但我也明白,我很軟弱,我的有限.
希望我能夠常用信心依靠祂.
每一時,每一刻,每一秒.

The Ant and the Contact Lens

Brenda was almost halfway to the top of the tremendous granite cliff. She was standing on a ledge where she was taking a breather during this, her first rock climb. As she rested there, the safety rope snapped against her eye and knocked out her contact lens . 'Great', she thought. 'Here I am on a rock ledge, hundreds of feet from the bottom and hundreds of feet to the top of this cliff, and now my sight is blurry.'
She looked and looked, hoping that somehow it had landed on the ledge. But it just wasn't there.

She felt the panic rising in her, so she began praying. She prayed for calm, and she prayed that she may find her contact lens.

When she got to the top, a friend examined her eye and her clothing for the lens, but it was not to be found. Although she was calm now that she was at the top, she was saddened because she could not clearly see across the range of mountains. She thought of the bible verse 'Th e eyes of the Lord run to and fro throughout the whole earth.'

She thought, 'Lord, You can see all these mountains. You know every stone and leaf, and You know exactly where my contact lens is. Please help me.'

Later, when they had hiked down the trail to the bottom of the cliff they met another party of climbers just starting up the face of the cliff. One of them shouted out, 'Hey, you guys! Anybody lose a contact lens?'

Well, that would be startling enough, but you know why the climber saw it? An ant was moving slowly across a twig on the face of the rock, carrying it!

The story doesn't end there. Brenda's father is a cartoonist. When she told him the incredible story of the ant, the prayer, and the contact lens, he drew a cartoon of an ant lugging that contact lens with the caption, 'Lord, I don't know why You want me to carry this thing. I can't eat it, and it's awfully heavy. But if this is what You want me to do, I'll carry it for You.'

I think it would do all of us some good to say, 'God, I don't know why You want me to carry this l oad. I can see no good in it and it's awfully heavy. But, if You want me to carry it, I will.'
God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called.

Yes, I do love GOD. He is my source of existence and my Savior. He keeps me functioning each and every day Without Him, I am nothing, but with Him....I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me. AMEN! (Phil. 4:13)