學心理學?!!!

唸心理學唸的這個樣子.
吼~~~我常在想,我到底學了什麼!
我到底為什麼要來學?
看著別人的行銷學,初會,程式,實驗,報導...
在看自己,生理學,知覺,社心,語言....nightmare!到底學了什麼有用的東西啊我?!!
除了考試的煎熬,寫不完手快斷的難過.
永遠找不到文獻(就算找到也看不懂)的報告海...
我到底在這裡活了三年,除了在意分數,一些課本上的事實.
事實上,我什麼都不會(心虛...)
阿啊啊啊啊啊啊啊!!!容許我大聲的吶喊,就想要找個地方讓我好好的發洩!!!

我幹嘛去思考研究所啊?我幹嘛要走臨床啊?
我沒有敏感洞察人的需要的能力,
我沒有犧牲小我,完成大我的精神,
我沒有那種會帶團體,會進入玄界的說詞,
我沒有所謂的批判精神(我這個隨從性很高,是好是壞?!)
我沒有想要天天只是坐在那裡等人家來做IQ測驗的耐心,
我沒有喜歡坐在paper面前看它還是給它看的激情,
我沒有喜歡考試的感覺,也達不到人家要推甄的level,

是為什麼現在活得那麼痛苦,為要跟人家湊熱鬧?討論什麼研究所?!

大三上,每一天的日子,過得很輕浮,不踏實.很尷尬.
不會前途思慮,是假的.
年輕的時候(大一二還可以讓我揮霍,大三呢?)
責任變多,思想上有變成熟嗎?
還是活在循環中(生活,考試..)
偶爾出去玩,好開心.
偶爾來個深入talk,好扎心.

還是承認自己的不足吧,
在神面前.
不管自己在人面前看似多陽光,
在私底下就是空空的軀殼,無法滿足.

我不是我,不是重生在神面前有豐盛生命的我,
不是當初從家鄉出來帶著夢想理想單純的我,
我是生活的機器,重複重複或在循環中無可自拔.

學心理學,來幹嘛?!!能幹嘛?!!
好怕自己大學畢業後什麼都不會.
好想跟分數say bye bye~
我要去學影片剪輯,我要去聽音樂,學音樂,我要去做自己想做的事情,
不要被它框著!
心情低潮.

miss saigon!

以為它是搞笑片,因為新郎怎嚜哭哭笑笑地?原來這是一場婚禮的實況錄影，女主角Lea Salonga是位菲律賓知名歌手（Lea於1989年在西貢小姐Miss Saigon一劇中得到"金"Kim的一角，她正式揚名國際舞台，也被觀眾喻為百老匯聲音的最佳代表）。
Two Words，說些什麼呢？就是婚禮中男女雙方最渴望說的I do. 心愛的妻子在婚禮中獻唱給自己聽，無怪乎這位男士久久無法自己。就是這兩個字，代表著一生的承諾，見証真愛的存在。

天啊!竟然有這麼會唱歌的人,好清晰的發音!
原來她是唱:a whole new world的女主角!
聽得我好讚嘆!

In a while, in a word,
Every moment now returns.
For a while, seen or heard,
How each memory softly burns.
Facing you who brings me new tomorrows,
I thank God for yesterdays,
How they led me to this very hour,
How they led me to this place...

Every touch, every smile,
You have given me in care.
Keep in heart, always I'll,
Now be treasuring everywhere.
And if life should come to just one question,
Do I hold this moment true?
No trace of sadness,
Always with gladness...
'I DO...'

(instrumental)

Now a song that speaks of now and ever,
Beckons me to someone new,
Unexpected, unexplored, unseen,
Filled with promise coming through.
In a while, in a word,
You and I forever change,
Love so clear, never blurred,
Has me feeling wondrous, strange,
And if life should come to just one question,
Do I face each moment true?
No trace of sadness, always with gladness,
'I DO...'

Never with sadness...
Always with gladness...
'I...DO....'

do they see Jesus in me>?

深深的被她的聲音吸引,由其是她的歌詞,do they see Jesus in me?
這是讓我有很大反思的問題.
信仰是要來改變人的.但,為什麼,自己似乎不要說影響人,影響自己都好像有困難?
passion that i lost.

最怕的不是,自己做了好多努力,最怕的是,做了許多事情,卻發現神不在我的計畫中.最怕的是,自己不在他的計畫中.

do they see Jesus in me

作詞：Pete Carlson/Amy Roth 作曲：Pete Carlson/Amy Roth

Is the face that I see in the mirror
The one I want others to see
Do I show in the way that I walk in my life
The love that you've given to me
My heart desires to be like you
In all that I do all that I am

Do they see Jesus in me
Do they recognize your face
Do I communicate your love
And your grace
Do I reflect who you are
In the way I choose to be
Do they see Jesus Jesus in me

It's amazing that you'd ever use me
But use me the way you will
Help me to hold out a heart of compassion and grace
A heart that your spirit fills
May I show forgiveness and mercy
The same way you've shown it to me

Do they see Jesus in me
Do they recognize your face
Do I communicate your love
And your grace
Do I reflect who you are
In the way I choose to be
Do they see Jesus Jesus in me

Well I wanna show all the world
That you are the reason I live and breathe
So you'll be the one that they see
When they see me

Do they see Jesus in me
Do they recognize your face
Do I communicate your love
And your grace
Do I reflect who you are
In the way I choose to be
Do they see Jesus Jesus in me

hands of the potter

最近愛上這個英國詩歌團體:Caedmon's Call,
曲風帶點輕鬆的搖滾,但不會太吵,聽起來很輕鬆愉快,
重點是,歌詞寫得很有意思.
hands of the potter,主要說我們是泥土,他是陶匠,真的需要主一直不斷來塑造我~
enjoy it!

Title: Caedmon's Call - Hands Of The Potter lyrics

Artist: Caedmon's Call

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Lord if i'm the clay
Then i've been left out in the sun
Cracked and dry, like the mud from the sty
Still clinging to the prodigal son

But I'm on my way back home
Yes I'm on my way back home

Into the hands (into the hands)
That made wine (wine) from the water
Into the hands (into the hands)
The hands of the potter

Lord if i'm the clay then
Let your living water flow
Soften up my edges, lord,
So everyone will know

But i'm on my way back home
Yes i'm on my way back home

And Lord, when you listen for the song of my life
Let it be, let it be, a song so sweet
Let it be, let it be, a song so sweet
Let it be...

Lord, if i'm the clay then lay me down
On your spinning wheel
Shape me into something you can fill
With something real

And I'll be on my way back home
Yes i'm on my way back home

感謝神

覺得現在,雖然考試,但是心情,卻是恰到好處.
雖然生病,但是神讓我看到我需要調整自己的作息.
早點睡,不要擔憂那麼多
rey to pray,to tell Lord,to know what Lord want me to do.
親近神,他會為我開道路.

in between...

經歷選擇.
學姐提供一個工讀的機會,要我到台南縣柳營奇美醫院幫助他收問卷、做睡眠工作日誌、睡眠衛教.但是,交通真的是我最大的痛.
從學校騎機車到民雄,搭火車到柳營或新營~過後搭接駁車,來回共要3小時,打工才4小時.
早上9點出門,到醫院10:30打工到3點,下午3:52到民雄,4點多回到宿舍.
好處是:
我可以學習嗎?可以學習收問卷,跟病人接觸,學習安慰,學習睡眠的部份...但是才2個月,8次學到什麼嗎?
缺點是:
花在交通的時間太多了!在學校的話我在幹嘛?
睡飽一點...早上打工(10-12),1-3點聽講座,也是差不多...><
嗚嗚...時間比較充裕.
學姐說CBT等老師回來還是有機會學習.
大三要幹嘛?
聽講座,看看書,練習英文.要寫國科會嗎?要申請5年1貫嗎?要準備推甄嗎?真的要這麼早去預備嗎?
那大四要用來幹嘛?
院內計畫嗎?考GRE嗎?tOEffle?跟實驗室,去醫院玩玩?
我還是希望大三乖乖唸書.專心唸書.唸paper,找方向.多一點空間來思考,成長.
我還有大四.
回到重點,打工放棄演講,呼!!!你覺得呢?
要聽,還是要做?你真的有興趣嗎?
明天去的時候一定要請學姐再解釋我做什麼.
i wan to sleep now.must sleep!!!Lord, You bring me here.You must take care of it~
I depends on you!thanks Lord!

what do i want?

wat do i really want huh?
i expext what will sucees without going pain.
my work,my study,my church life?
i try hard.but i feel frustrated.
fill with upset.seems unlike christian.unhappy.dun have any joy with me...
well,i scare so to meet lost.
how ahould i encourage myself?may be sleep will help.