time not enough,
i wish i have magic,
boom!change it!
wow,lot of plan,i need determination!!!
i wish i can go to some teachers lab,i leanrned lots of theory,but learn and do is a kind of different things!and wish an find my future interest in psy.children or biology.
then,i hope i can still learn guitar!!!and jazz drum.
then,travel to taitung aboriginal's festivities~
i need some target.Lord~~~~
2007年5月30日 星期三
how?
well,gone going gone.
everyday passed so fast!
am i a ppl that give pressure to others?
and make someone feel uncomfortable?
oftenly,when i wanna care abt others,i felt quite pressure.
uncomfortable to others response,and i really do not know how to share my story to others.
ai,LOrd,what do u want me to do?
i might suffer at social phobia.
however,i do know it is not only becoz i dont know,it strongly related to my family background.
what do u wanna test me in it?
everyday passed so fast!
am i a ppl that give pressure to others?
and make someone feel uncomfortable?
oftenly,when i wanna care abt others,i felt quite pressure.
uncomfortable to others response,and i really do not know how to share my story to others.
ai,LOrd,what do u want me to do?
i might suffer at social phobia.
however,i do know it is not only becoz i dont know,it strongly related to my family background.
what do u wanna test me in it?
2007年5月27日 星期日
the date with her.(and him?)-another love story
i felt angry at first becoz i felt disregarded by the ppl whom i respect so much.
and I hate someone whom ignored my eagerness to know something that meant so much to me.
however,she gave me an appeasement answer,now i felt better.
from her answer, she know for sure that they are match.
and i found sth which are interest that i had never paid attention to.wow!fresh for me!
she told me lot of his special attributes.
i felt happy that she is so clear abt it.
and what made me felt ashame is,i need more prayer to God.
i growth only from outside.
actually i have been struggling for so long time and didn't bring it to God.but what is the truth is,i can't bear it without Lord!
ok,why you always run from Lord?
i need lot of remind.i need to walk inside and have a close relationship with Lord or I will still sink and then float again,and sink again.unreliable.don't paid too much hope on me!i always think like that.
but Lord did give me lot of chances to challenge myself and growth.be strong,babe!
give yourself a chance, have a good start,and don't too depend on yourself but to look upon God.
dear Lord,please open the eyes of my heart Lord,I want to see You.
and I hate someone whom ignored my eagerness to know something that meant so much to me.
however,she gave me an appeasement answer,now i felt better.
from her answer, she know for sure that they are match.
and i found sth which are interest that i had never paid attention to.wow!fresh for me!
she told me lot of his special attributes.
i felt happy that she is so clear abt it.
and what made me felt ashame is,i need more prayer to God.
i growth only from outside.
actually i have been struggling for so long time and didn't bring it to God.but what is the truth is,i can't bear it without Lord!
ok,why you always run from Lord?
i need lot of remind.i need to walk inside and have a close relationship with Lord or I will still sink and then float again,and sink again.unreliable.don't paid too much hope on me!i always think like that.
but Lord did give me lot of chances to challenge myself and growth.be strong,babe!
give yourself a chance, have a good start,and don't too depend on yourself but to look upon God.
dear Lord,please open the eyes of my heart Lord,I want to see You.
2007年5月25日 星期五
下決心
小結一下自己這星期到底做了些什麼.
熬夜.成了自己的壞習慣.很討厭第二天睜開眼睛的時候那種刺痛感.
還有對什麼事情都只想要敷衍的那個自己.
那張貼在別人機車上的禱告詞,給我一個提醒:pray for每天都有熱情,而且不是依靠自己的能力.
well,昨天為了一份認知報告,我蹺課了.
還是蹺了2堂課.遇到這種壓力,真的很不能原諒自己.但是為了解決我的壓力,我也得這樣做.
鄭阿美,有空的時候,都在幹嘛?放鬆,要真的有放鬆到,不要拿無所事實來當成放鬆的藉口,卻過著糊裡糊塗的生活了!!!
生緒,72,比上次還要慘,但是真的沒有很盡力去念.
怎嚜了?自己沒有盡心盡力的做事情,真的很不應該.
要做,就要做到最好的!
這是一種態度.
今早被一通電話叫醒正在賴床的我,哈哈哈哈!果然中了!
填線上的問卷抽獎抽到了我也!一台1G的mp4!!!
應該要覺得很高興吧!但是我還好,因為已經有了一台讓我很滿意的zen~
讓我深深的感受到,當你已經找到讓你滿足的東西,其它多餘的就沒有那麼的吸引自己.
就想跟神的關係,如果你真的知道在上帝那裡可以找到真正的滿足,why 你還會受這麼多世界的事情掩蔽了自己的愛心,提醒?
昨天阿,就是還是要說一下這個報告帶給我的困擾,還有教訓.
怎麼辦?我真的有種錯誤的懶惰,什麼都要拖到最後才要做.
結果就很痛苦,還有埋怨很多.
這真的是很不好的習慣!我要改掉它!
如果做完了事情,適當的給自己獎賞,也不會在玩的時候那麼心虛!!!
我要改過來!不要讓target模糊了!不要失去了對生活的熱誠!
1)先寫下what you want to do,what you should,what you really need to do.sole those which make you tense first.do what you need to do .then only do what you want to do.this is a kind of priority.
2)think abt meaning of it.dont do it unreluctantly and suffer.you can make choice and u can make it different!find meaning and strategy.
3)set time and let yourself dip inside of it.enjoy babe!
熬夜.成了自己的壞習慣.很討厭第二天睜開眼睛的時候那種刺痛感.
還有對什麼事情都只想要敷衍的那個自己.
那張貼在別人機車上的禱告詞,給我一個提醒:pray for每天都有熱情,而且不是依靠自己的能力.
well,昨天為了一份認知報告,我蹺課了.
還是蹺了2堂課.遇到這種壓力,真的很不能原諒自己.但是為了解決我的壓力,我也得這樣做.
鄭阿美,有空的時候,都在幹嘛?放鬆,要真的有放鬆到,不要拿無所事實來當成放鬆的藉口,卻過著糊裡糊塗的生活了!!!
生緒,72,比上次還要慘,但是真的沒有很盡力去念.
怎嚜了?自己沒有盡心盡力的做事情,真的很不應該.
要做,就要做到最好的!
這是一種態度.
今早被一通電話叫醒正在賴床的我,哈哈哈哈!果然中了!
填線上的問卷抽獎抽到了我也!一台1G的mp4!!!
應該要覺得很高興吧!但是我還好,因為已經有了一台讓我很滿意的zen~
讓我深深的感受到,當你已經找到讓你滿足的東西,其它多餘的就沒有那麼的吸引自己.
就想跟神的關係,如果你真的知道在上帝那裡可以找到真正的滿足,why 你還會受這麼多世界的事情掩蔽了自己的愛心,提醒?
昨天阿,就是還是要說一下這個報告帶給我的困擾,還有教訓.
怎麼辦?我真的有種錯誤的懶惰,什麼都要拖到最後才要做.
結果就很痛苦,還有埋怨很多.
這真的是很不好的習慣!我要改掉它!
如果做完了事情,適當的給自己獎賞,也不會在玩的時候那麼心虛!!!
我要改過來!不要讓target模糊了!不要失去了對生活的熱誠!
1)先寫下what you want to do,what you should,what you really need to do.sole those which make you tense first.do what you need to do .then only do what you want to do.this is a kind of priority.
2)think abt meaning of it.dont do it unreluctantly and suffer.you can make choice and u can make it different!find meaning and strategy.
3)set time and let yourself dip inside of it.enjoy babe!
2007年5月24日 星期四
忙碌的一天
還是晚睡,變成了一種病態.
我想睡.但是東西怎麼都做不完?
還有認知報告,劇本.
過一天算一天.明天自有明天的憂慮.
今天去剪頭髮,還染了頭髮.
染頭髮,頭皮一種不習慣的刺痛.還有那種藥水的味道.
似曾相識.去年的暑假第一次跟盈甄去染頭髮,也是同一間.
不過這個髮型師讓我不太滿意,沒多大的改變,讓我沒有多大的驚喜.
花的錢與結果讓我有點,心理不平衡.
算了.下次還是要沈浩好.還害老蘇的飯局取消了.坐了4個小時.不斷的換顧客.
這傢伙做事不能一鼓作氣嗎?
算了.跟老蘇去吃晚餐.
分享了一些我真的很想不到的事情的感想.
還有對小組團契的看法,收穫不少.
從大四看走過的路,總有些不一樣.
我也不知道明天會怎樣,pray 吧!
原住民計畫,希望成功.
暑假的工讀,不要等待了,還是趕快勤快的找吧!
現在不吃苦,未來就會吃更多苦.寧願現在多吃苦.
哈,早點睡!niteZZZ...
我想睡.但是東西怎麼都做不完?
還有認知報告,劇本.
過一天算一天.明天自有明天的憂慮.
今天去剪頭髮,還染了頭髮.
染頭髮,頭皮一種不習慣的刺痛.還有那種藥水的味道.
似曾相識.去年的暑假第一次跟盈甄去染頭髮,也是同一間.
不過這個髮型師讓我不太滿意,沒多大的改變,讓我沒有多大的驚喜.
花的錢與結果讓我有點,心理不平衡.
算了.下次還是要沈浩好.還害老蘇的飯局取消了.坐了4個小時.不斷的換顧客.
這傢伙做事不能一鼓作氣嗎?
算了.跟老蘇去吃晚餐.
分享了一些我真的很想不到的事情的感想.
還有對小組團契的看法,收穫不少.
從大四看走過的路,總有些不一樣.
我也不知道明天會怎樣,pray 吧!
原住民計畫,希望成功.
暑假的工讀,不要等待了,還是趕快勤快的找吧!
現在不吃苦,未來就會吃更多苦.寧願現在多吃苦.
哈,早點睡!niteZZZ...
2007年5月23日 星期三
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